Saturday, November 28, 2009

for once

things just seem to have a way of working themselves out
:)

Thursday, November 26, 2009

indecision

maybe just maybe

Monday, November 23, 2009

sadly mistaken

i don't think you realise that i mean it

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

hopeless

you would think by now i would be dealing with it
its been over a month after all
but its still just as hard
things just keep reminding me that your not here
i keep losing things that are important to me
it just keeps happening around me
reminding me of what happened
not letting me move on
but sometimes theres just nothing you can do
that's the worst part

Sunday, November 8, 2009

The Attorney General

on Wednesday the Attorney General came and spoke to us
before the talk Ms Bartlett asked if anyone aspired to eventually make it that high in the legal system, i didn't put my hand up then but i thought about it and after hearing him speak i realised that's what i want to do. the way he described his job was incredible, the legislation we discuss and which is enforced, he has helped to create. he has introduced bills which are later turned into laws. he actually does something which makes a difference.
in class the day before we had discussed the new surrogacy laws; on Wednesday then he started to discuss them. he had had an active role in the development and passing of that legislation. i always knew that it occurred but to have someone talking to you about it and actually having first hand experience in it was amazing. the way he discussed introducing bills and passing legislation, like it was nothing, was incredible. he knew how lucky he was, yet it was still just a job for him. he wasn't cocky or up himself, he just explained it and told us what hes done.

he was born on the south side of Brisbane, went to university, studied law, became a lawyer. worked as a solicitor and barrister, in both the private and public sectors. at 27 he went over to one of the islands in the pacific and worked as a volunteer as a lawyer there, alongside their Attorney General. after a year the Attorney General there decided he wanted more study and so the attorney general left to study at university for a year leaving him in charge. at 27 years of age he was the acting Attorney General of a country, newly independent. he returned to Australia and earlier this year, in March he was elected as member for greenslopes, at the same time he was appointed Attorney General. he is in his mid 30's and he is a member of parliament and Attorney General of Queensland.

when asked why he wanted to be Attorney General, why he liked the job his answer wasn't one that was expected. of course no one expected to say 'for the money', but his answer was so honest and sincere that you realised he truly was there because he wanted to help people.

as i sat there listening to him, i saw Kristy whisper to Irene in front of me that he was amazing, i couldn't help but agree because not only was he successful at a young age but he was honest and he was genuine, and he really was there to help others. in that moment i decided that was my aim. maybe not Attorney General, but something like that. i want to reach the level where i can help people, truly help them and make a difference.

afterwards i was talking to Kristy and she once again remarked that he was amazing, i had to agree and we both commented that you can tell a guy is incredible when he can talk about law for 70 minutes and you don't get bored :p then i was talking to Gabe and she asked me about it. i told her pretty much what this blog has said; the way he talked and the life he has led is incredible. even she was impressed by him and she wasn't even there.

those 70 minutes were some of the most amazing of my life and i don't think ill ever forget his visit. i learnt more in that time then in any lesson I've attended, certainly worth missing maths for XD

xo

insecure

you made me question everything,
it was meant to clear everything up, so we could get over it
move on
but it only made me more confused, made me question myself and how i act
i don't know what to do now
how to act, or who to be
it hurt, it really hurt
and i don't think you even realised you said it, that it affected me
i cant look at them the same anymore,
i always think its about me, that they don't like me
that its all a lie, a cover
that one day everyone will turn around and laugh at me
I'm confused, I'm hurt and i really don't like it
but theres nothing i can do about it
that's the hardest part

Monday, November 2, 2009

so fucking pissed at the moment

Sunday, November 1, 2009

feels like crap

sometimes its hurts
but no one seems to notice
or care