situations

you know the feeling when your on edge
i had that today

when you hear something that you weren't expecting from someone you defiantly weren't expecting it from
i had that today

or maybe i was expecting it i just told myself i wasn't

i guess we both should have been
but i still feel bad that shes going through this
she'll get through it though,
shes strong

but maybe she shouldn't have to

why must people ask questions and analyse situations
why cant everyone just leave it alone and realise its none of their business

but that's not what made me on edge
i felt bad that they're asking her but that's not what gave me this feeling

it was when you asked me,
and i couldn't answer
i laughed and i joked and i answered your other questions
but i didn't answer that one,
well not properly anyway
I'm not sure if you noticed and let it slide, thank you if you did
or whether i looked calmer then i felt on the inside

to tell you the truth, i cant
i cant answer that question because I'm not sure what the answer is
I'm confused and at one moment i think one thing and the next i think something else
i know what would be easier but I'm not sure if its the truth
i cant just say that, especially to you
you deserve the truth and I'm sorry i cant give that to you

all i can give you at the moment is that I'm confused
if you noticed that i didn't answer the question today, its not that i don't trust you its just that i don't know
I'm not sure how to explain it or what anything even means
if i ever figure it out ill let you know
but right now my heads just messed up
I'm sorry

i have to say though, we should have another lunchtime like that again
i missed you

xo