ARE YOU OKAY?

its an interesting question,
everyone asks it,
i always wonder if they actually care about the answer though
if they care whether you actually are okay or not, or if they're just asking because they think they should

i got asked that about 10 times this morning alone
my answer, 'im fine'
in my head, 'of course im not okay'
but you cant say that because then you have to explain why..and i cant explain why

I'm not tired and I'm not sick like i have been all week..
well i am but that's not why I'm upset

its just something you said, that i found out last night
and i probably have no right to be upset about it
its just....i don't know...

i just am and...

i don't know what to do, because to you it doesn't matter

but to me it means alot more....