i miss you

i promised myself i wouldn't let it happen
i knew things would change, they inevitably had to
but i promised myself i wouldn't let it affect our friendship
but it has
all of ours, we were so close just a couple of months ago
i knew things would change i just wish they didn't have to
i miss you
all of you
how easily we got along, how good we all were together
how there was no pressure when we spend time together
i wrote a couple of months ago that it was you three who understood me, that i felt more comfortable around you three than anyone else
i miss that feeling
i know its still there and i know its true, i just haven't felt it for a while
because i pushed you all away
and for that I'm sorry
i never meant it to happen, but i didn't do anything to stop it either
for the past few weeks it was easier to ignore the issue then think about it, so that's what i did
it was selfish and childish and I'm sorry that i acted that way
i miss you all
and i wish i could change parts of the last few months
i wish we could go back to how we felt a couple of months ago
but we cant
i just hope you accept my apology and we can move on
i love you three and i miss you all heaps

xo