its interesting

i just realised how much easier it is to blog when I'm upset or angry
when life sucks i have something to write about
i can complain and rant without caring what others think because it isn't truly what I'm feeling
its harder to blog when I'm happy
when everythings going right i have trouble blogging I've noticed
its not that its not important, on the contrary there probably more important
its just that therefore my feelings about those events are more important to me and mean more
i cant express them as easily
it would mean showing myself in a way that I'm not used to

expressing any emotion is different but the deepest are most protected

i think that's why i haven't blogged much recently
life has been going well
I've been happier recently then i usually am

there has still been the usual crap moments
- maths assignment
- my boss
- my knee

but overall everything gone well
- semi was amazing
- the post was....entertaining
- work was fun
- netball training was brilliant
- Tuesday afternoon
my friends are incredible

i think they're what are different
work has always been fun
netball trainings usually good
but in general I've felt better recently

everythings falling into place recently
schoolies
America though you aren't going :(

all of which ill do which my friends

admittedly I've been friends with them for a while but until now theres been.......issues
recently it seems to be settling down
I've apparently 'changed sides' but from where i am that's not a bad thing
our group seems to be working again
all the clicks have settled down and we seem to be comfortable
I'm happy with that

it was terrible to see people upset because of certain people or situations
but i think most have been resolved now or at least each has moved on
I'm happy with that

my friends mean the world to me
i cant imagine my life without any of them

but i think I'm most comfortable now
the clicks we've found

B: we have our catch ups at random moments yet when everything falls apart its her that id turn to
G: we have such an easy relationship, yet shes one of my closest friends
N: i see her once or twice a week but there are moments when she cracks me up more then anyone else
L: work just wouldn't be the same without her. hot guys, noses, unknown fathers, gays guys :p

thank you
for making life entertaining
for making me happy

xo